Characters: Kaya, Rafe, Caleb
FanFic Story: After Midnight - Brought on by Kaya's request in Episode 50: Put It to Rest.
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“Oh, that felt so good! Being on that stage after so long.
To hear our music in my ears again,” Kaya swayed in his arms taking it all in.
The excitement of all those times swooping over her like a warm, familiar
blanket. It felt good seeing and feeling like her old self again; something
only performing could bring out. “…and the crowd was amazing!”
Rafe enjoyed gazing at her now, exactly the way she was
before…before everything. She was so happy she was trembling in his arms; the
adrenaline from performing still coursing through her veins. If only she could
be like this all the time—free and happy. He closed his eyes and took in a deep
breath; taking in the wonderful scent her body was generating. “I missed you,” he
whispered, meaning this carefree side of her, “very much.”
He nuzzled her neck trying to breathe in her scent even more
and it released a soft but deep moan from inside her. She misinterpreted his
meaning and closed him inside a tight embrace pressing feathery light kisses
all over his face. “We can do something about that you know…” she whispered
back, taking his bottom lip between her teeth. It didn’t bother him that much
that she mistook the meaning in his words and he didn’t protest when she pulled
him towards her old, still pink as ever, bed. Because truth be told, he missed
her physically as well.
Kaya pulled him on top of her until he covered her
completely. The weight of him a good crushing feeling. She ran her fingers
through his hair. It was longer, but still his and it felt the same. She held
her Rafe again her beloved, her soul mate, her wild-wolf. The thought of it was
overwhelming and it made her wolf do backflips. She clutched his head and
pressed her lips on his. The corners of his mouth slowly rose and she felt him
smile against her lips before he hungrily took the lead. Kaya liked it when he
took control halfway and helped him take off her top followed by his shirt. She
could feel the makings of his arousal through his pants and caressed a hand
down his torso until she held him in her hand. Caressing him through his pants,
she felt him grow and the pants tightened around him.
Rafe let out a deep moan and slid down her body, just out of
reach of her hand. He wanted this, but it was too soon. If she kept it up, he’d
take her through the zipper-opening. No, he wanted to savor this. Enjoy every
part of her body just like he did the first night he made her his! He kissed a
fiery path down her neck while allowing his hands to roam over her body
caressing all her beautiful curves. With one finger he pulled back one lace cup
of her bra to reveal the chocolate brown nubs he enjoyed so much. Rolling his
tongue around it, but never enclosing it. Kaya moaned her annoyance and
expected him to give into her request. Rafe moved his other hand down her body
instead and cupped her mound, flicking his index finger around her clit. It
took her completely by surprise and she threw her head back. “Oohhh…”
She took his head once more and looked at him with a sultry look. Taking in his face, etching it in her mind. “I love you, Rafe!” The look on her face was full of love and warmth and could melt down an igloo. But on him it had quite the opposite effect and he froze. Kaya didn’t understand and the confusion was spread across her face when he got up and slowly backed away from her.
She took his head once more and looked at him with a sultry look. Taking in his face, etching it in her mind. “I love you, Rafe!” The look on her face was full of love and warmth and could melt down an igloo. But on him it had quite the opposite effect and he froze. Kaya didn’t understand and the confusion was spread across her face when he got up and slowly backed away from her.
“Rafe, what’s wrong?”
“I-I can’t…”
“Wha—” she started to ask when she saw Rafe physically turn
into Caleb in front of her eyes.
“I can’t watch you love him…and not me! I know that sounds crazy because I am ‘him’, but still…you sometimes slip up and call me Caleb when we talk normally. You don’t even notice…it hurts that you’ve never ONCE slipped up when we’re intimate. Neither have you once said I love you without adding that name. Almost as if to remind yourself that we’re two different persons.”
“I can’t watch you love him…and not me! I know that sounds crazy because I am ‘him’, but still…you sometimes slip up and call me Caleb when we talk normally. You don’t even notice…it hurts that you’ve never ONCE slipped up when we’re intimate. Neither have you once said I love you without adding that name. Almost as if to remind yourself that we’re two different persons.”
“C-Caleb…I—”
“Don’t! The fault is mine. Believing that I could give you
what you wanted, what you would be comfortable with and that it wouldn’t matter
to me,” he sank down on the floor and leaned against the wall, “It matters, Kaya, it matters and it hurts!”
He smiled a weak smile in her direction but it evaporated as
soon as he saw her and he lowered his head to the ground. Kaya saw him shudder
with the small breaths he took and slowly moved towards him. She hesitated at
first, but touched his shoulder. “Caleb, I-I’m s-sor—”
“Maybe it would’ve been better had your father killed me
that night. That I’d never known you like this…never loved you like this,” he
interrupted her. Caleb looked up at her, his grey eyes glistening with stubborn
tears that refused to fall, “But I guess this is my eternal punishment for what
I did…to have you as my mate, but nothing else…not your happiness…your love…all
that you save for when you’re with ‘him’.” His underlip trilled as he spoke out
that last word. “I hate him, Kaya, I hate him! I only have your bond, but he
has you…I hate him!”
Kaya’s eyes began to fill up. This wasn’t the fear from her
nightmares as he sat there…this was just a man. A man she broke. She believed
in forgiveness, but it was hard to do; he killed her mother. She never should’ve
led him on in the beginning just plain came out and told him she wouldn’t be
able to forgive him even if she wanted to with all her heart. Kaya had no words
for how wrong this felt inside. She always saw the good in people when they
themselves couldn’t see it and with him she did the one thing she always tried
not to do…only saw the bad in him.
“This is my punishment and I’ll have to carry it with me
until it destroys me.” Caleb lifted his eyes and looked at her one last time
through his own eyes. Keeping his eyes on her, he caressed her face and slowly
shifted back into Rafe’s form. When the transformation was complete, the
stubborn tears in his eyes finally fell. “You can have him, Kaya…Caleb shall
never come before your eyes again...”
He slowly stood up and walked to the door. “Caleb, please…”
He turned around and faced her. “It’s Rafe, Kaya…Rafe!” And
with that he left Kaya on the floor sobbing uncontrollably.
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wow...Nice job JM. The fact he was responsible for so much pain in her life was the biggest issue in their relationship. When he said this was his punishment was hard, but fitting. He couldn't have his cake and eat it too so while he had his mate she loved the other him. Kinda sad.
ReplyDeleteShe wrote a great scene. Caleb was carrying around a great deal of grief and it was sad watching the torture he was going through :(
DeleteI don't want to read it again. It hurt then... still pinches now!
ReplyDeleteLove the added pictures (Dang that guy is smexy) The title is also very fitting. Love it!
Wait... Did you have a shirtless Rafe and a shirtless Caleb in the same room to shoot this????? How are both you AND Kaya still breathing? I'm losing it just thinking about it.
Thanks for the feature chica!
I hope I never zone into one of your characters again. The next time just might kill me. Like you said that shit is heartbreaking!
Thank you for writing such a poignant piece!
DeleteNo matter how many times I read it, it always hit home...especially the part about not knowing her love...sadness.
And yes, there was a topless Caleb and Rafe in the same room at the same time :P I think Kaya was having difficulty breathing. She may have even passed out once or twice and had to be revived via CPR. But it turns out she was only faking to get the guys to perform mouth-to-mouth. (Oh wait a second, that was me.)